i took my seventh pill this morning.

so far, i'm not experiencing any side effects, which i'm super happy about, and i'm about a week and a bit away from seeing if they're doing the trick (although it may take a little longer for me to see a difference due to the fact that i experience bouts of joy as a regular part of my life without them, too.)

that being said, medication doesn't give you joy or 'take your pain away'; it just helps lift the fog long enough for you to be able to see and think more clearly.

of course, other things help, too: like sitting near a window or going for a walk. eating fruits and vegetables. praying. journalling. seeing a counselor. doing things that bring you life. surrounding yourself with good people or sleeping on a friend's couch (all of which i have been doing the past week in addition to swallowing a pill each day.) for me, one side of the equation isn't effective without the other. for you, it may look different. but either way, i'm certain of one thing as i type this: life (and life to its full) is worth fighting for and tomorrow needs you. tomorrow needs us.