Wednesday, June 20, 2012

call it selfish, but encouragers need encouragement, too.

in 1 corinthians 15:58 and galatians 6:9, the apostle paul encourages us 'not to become weary in doing good' and to 'always give ourselves fully to the work of the Lord because we know that our labor is not in vain'.

if i can be honest with you, despite the truth found in the above verses, i have felt quite 'weary in doing good' as of late. i find it difficult to keep encouraging, serving, loving, and giving my all when i feel like i don't get much, if anything, in return.

now don't get me wrong, i KNOW that i'm loved; i just long to be a priority in someone's life.

i'm not even necessarily looking to be number one. i know that a lot of the people in my life have kids and families, [and they SHOULD be number one], but i don't get how i can be such a loyal friend [though i'm not perfect], and keep getting shafted, taken advantage of, or treated like a convenience. [the truth is, gentlemen, nice girls finish last, too].

though it amazes me, getting 131 likes on a single facebook status doesn't take away the loneliness that i feel at times. clicking 'like' on a facebook page can be deemed as shallow and takes all of one second. thinking of people and showing them that, however, takes far more time, and sacrifice. is it too much to ask to be thought about once in a while? and to be shown that? shouldn't friendships be a priority in life or do i need to do some re-prioritizing?

please note: this blog was not written to/about anyone specific. i'm 'simply' just wrestling with all of this and find blogging therapeutic.